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The other woman

Published June 13, 2013 by jjjemma

I met “a” through work. He was 19 and a supervisor for a company I was manager for when I was 20.
He was from Leeds and I was from Leicester.
We flirted outrageously at regional meetings and eventually we added on Facebook.

We would email and flirt and sexy regularly.

He was fit.

It all changed when he married his uni sweetheart.
I felt differently and we kept our distance. I didn’t want to be the other woman in any way shape or form.

We had no feeling for each other , other than lust.

No matters of the heart were ever discussed.

We’d email weekly, bantering each other.
On iPhones the signature at the bottom of emails is “sent from (insert name here) iPhone”

“A” and myself used to edit these to amuse ourselves…
“Sent from my hairy ball sacks”
“Sent from my wide set vagina”
“Sent from my sweaty crack”

Etc πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

My sons dad discovered our emails and set up a very similar email name to “a’s” and tried to trick me – I soon knew it wasn’t actual “a” when I started receiving emails telling me he loved me.
In the end I cut all contact with “a” to prove to my kids dad (and I use the term “dad” very fucking loosely!) that I did love him and wanted our relationship to work.

4 years later, boom!
I received a message on Facebook from “A”, asking how I’d been! We both now had 2 kids each, he’s relocated to Africa with his wife and I updated him on me!

We had a few flirty words of admiration for each other – but nothing crossing the line.

He tried to cross it asking for pics. I didn’t send him hat he wanted. I’m wiser now. I wouldn’t wanna hurt another woman.
I kept forcing the convo onto normal stuff. So I sent pics of my hair when I had it short etc. nothing rude.

He told me him and wifey wasn’t having sex and that marriage was virtually over. I suggested counselling to him (it sounds like she had post natal depression). He told me of their plans to engage in a 3-sum which I strongly advised against.

Anyway, the last 2 weeks he has been pelting my inbox with dirty messages. I’ve been blanking them as I don’t want to encourage that sort of communication now I am older and wiser.

So imagine my surprise when earlier in the week I receive a msg from his wife (via his now deleted Facebook page) – telling me to stay away and that “A” is being dealt with….

And!

That I should concentrate on my kids.

She clearly hasn’t seen thy he was the one attempting to lure me into sexy talks!
It’s been playing on my mind so I found her on Facebook and sent her this …(pic below)

Lesson learnt… I won’t speak to him again, and will keep married men at arms length.

Men think with their small head not the intelligent ones
Peace and love ,
Jem x

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Not again!!!

Published April 19, 2013 by jjjemma

Well. Ain’t life a biatch.

It happened again.

My lovely lovely date – I’m just gonna call him the acronym “dilf” as he actually was the epitome of it!

I say “was” 😀…

So after the first date , me and dilf text often, whatsapp’d etc. it was his brothers wedding last weekend so I have him space and didnt expect a second date until this week. I actually helped him with some of his best man speech – ‘cos I’m like totes funny aren’t I? Anyways!!!
There was a definitive chemistry and I suggested date 2 as bowling. I offered to book but he took over and booked it. He arranged to pick me up too. Which I liked. I can’t be doing with dithering men.
On the way over to mine his phone (which was his sat nav) died so he called me off his work number and I directed him to mine. He was flapping quite abit and I liked that as it meant that he liked me and wanted to make a good impression. πŸ‘

My mate Laura babysat and me and dilf and myself went bowling. We had a laugh. I threw a ball down his lane whilst he wasn’t looking. We had good banter. We sat for ages afterwards having a drink and chatting and even played the “terminator” shooting game. Quality date. For me – he still ticked all the right boxes. He dropped me home we sat in his car for an hour chatting. We spoke about his (ex) wife and he said he had the house they shared and she’d moved 10 mins away with the kids. He said she was very selfish and that she always moaned and never cleaned the house – and that when he found her sexting someone ekse that was the final straw. I then asked why he had his kids so much (he has them more than half the time). He replied “because i want them”. Fair enough. On delving alittle more he said that she tried to limit his time woth them but he threatened to “ruin” her in court. Hmmm. βœ‹
It didn’t put me off. I thought he just loved his kids so much – i mean, the eldest isn’t even his, yet he has took her on and even pays maintenance for her. We even had a little kiss. Perfecto! 😘

On the date I’d joked that I sent a standard “bog off” text to previous dates saying “thanks for a lovely date but I just didn’t feel we have a connection. It’s not you it’s me” so when I got in I sent him that- AS A JOKE.
I immediately followed it up with “haha not really I had a great time – dont leave it so long next time xx”
No reply.

The next morning he was back texting again and moaning at how tired he was.

He was abit strange.

He then started saying things like “I want you x” followed by “I’ve just had a wank” – WHO SAYS THAT????!!! 😳
He then asked “what do you want?”
I had a panic- but was truthful. I replied “I eventually want to settle down, but first and foremost I want someone I click with and can have a laugh with”

No reply.

So I sent another saying “what do you want?”

It had to be discussed now he’d opened the can of worms.

His reply “fuck buddy?”

Wtf!!!
I got mad! I replied ” so why did you close your Pof and say you wanted to see what happened with me??? Was you just seeing if you could shag me??”

He replied “are you joking?”

I replied “are you?!!!!”

I was livid!!! Played much?!!!!πŸ‘ŠπŸ‘ŠπŸ‘ŠπŸ˜“

He then replied “no”

And then told me he’d been winding me up as payback for my joke text dumping him the previous night!!!

Hahahaha!!! I was soooo relieved!!!

Good banter ya see ?!!!! πŸ’˜

He was abit quiet and went bed early on Tuesday cos he’d been out late with me Monday and up early for his job Tuesday. We’d arranged for him to come round mine this evening so I was happy happy.

Wednesday came. Nothing.
I had a massive hair show to prepare for and was going to be on the go all day. Thought the day I checked my phone. I was thinking of him all day. Even though I was busy. Whilst the catwalk was on I text him trying to keep it lighthearted saying “are you bored of me already?”

He replied an hour later saying “sorry baby I’ve been in training all day and on a works dinner thing now xx”

So I just replied “ok have fun! The show went well – I smashed itxx”

He didn’t even bother to ask me about the show. I clearly hadn’t been on his mind like he had been on mine. πŸ˜“.

Thursday morning, I got a text saying “I’m a bit shot really aren’t I? X”
I replied “yes but I don’t understand why though”

He then went on to say how he enjoyed spending time with me but he didn’t think he could give me what I needed. Then started saying how lovely I am blah blah blah.

Basically I had been friend zoned. A – fucking – gain!!!

I kept my cool and just wished him well. I was still confused though as I’d done nothing wrong. I’d not bombarded him with texts.

Last night , I went into his Facebook. I’ve checked it out before. We aren’t friends. But when I checked it a few days ago he was still friends with his ex wife which I found abit weird. I didn’t even say anything when he said she was going to be going to his brothers wedding as she was taking the kids.

Well, had a look and fuck me, his mrs ain’t on there anymore. Is that coincidence?

She’s still on Facebook , just they aren’t Facebook friends anymore.
Obviously I can’t let him know I’ve done a stalking sesh on his Facebook. But still – weird no???

Also – another coincidence maybe but the last few evenings I’d text him and imessege hadn’t gone through so it got sent via text instead… This only happened the last two evenings around the same time…. Another coincidence?

So today I text and demanded some clarification.

I sent:
Did something happen yesterday ? I am confused as today you’ve done a full u-turn?
I’ve had a good couple of dates with you so it’s come as a bit of a surprise to me? X

No reply. So I sent it to his work phone too. Fuck it .

He replied saying:
Oh my god my other phone has broken which is why i didn’t reply! I am not seeing my ex nor anyone else. I just feel that you are looking for someone who can devote more time to building a relationship with you than i can at the moment. I know you think i’m a prick but i would rather be honest with you than string you along and let you down x

I then explained that I don’t need anyone who can give me all their time as I have my kids , friends, family, college and my own business to run.

He kept saying things like “that’s what makes you so attractive to me” “I’m sorry it really isn’t you”

Anyway. I got abit pissy with him and put:Well I suggest you don’t go telling people you’re looking for a relationship then. ‘Cos you’ll end up hurting people. I really thought I’d found a diamond out of that piece of shit dating site.
I cried yesterday- because I was convinced it was me. I never cry. I’m not an emotionally loose person.

This is how girls turn into bitches- from lads pissing them about.

You were full on at first and then it’s like you just got bored of me.

But don’t worry I know it is your loss. It’s just a shame I had my hopes raised by someone who actually liked me for me.

He replied:
I really do like you for you and it kills me to know you were upset 😦 x

And then he wished me luck!

So – what do we think had occurred???
Was it me???
Someone out me out of my fucking misery
Please

Second best

Published January 12, 2013 by jjjemma

Alittle update…
I started talking to hot guy. Hot guy messeged me via POF.
He was 39 (alittle older than I like – but what the hell -he was FIT!) he was also over 6 foot tall… And us girls LOVE a tall man right?!!!😜
He’s the guy who I gave my blog address too. He was gorgeous looking, into similar things as me and no kids! Seemed too good to be true.

We spoke numerous times via Pof over the next week and he read my blog. He ripped me abit about things I wrote but also commented that he could maybe be the one who could be the end of my blog!!! πŸ‘

Eventually I asked if we could exchange numbers as everytime I signed into Pof , I would get 20 messeges from men and my inbox was bursting as I was “online”
ALOT! So, he gave me his number, we chatted lots and all was well. The more I knew about this guy the more I liked him. He used to sing in a band and he gave me his band name so I could watch on YouTube.
OMG what a beautiful voice… Had smokey tones to his voice!!! He also played guitar…
…all this good stuff posed the question:
“Why the hell is he on POF?”
So I asked him. His answer was plausible. He had been out of a relationship for 5 months and chatting women up in bars wasn’t his style. Fine πŸ™‚

I was at college earlier this week and was messaging him. He asked what campus I was at as he worked in town and wanted to go for lunch (but I wasn’t attending the city centre campus).
Anyhooo, we kept messaging and regularly he would text me good morning etc

Yesterday the texts stopped In the afternoon, which was weird as we always said goodnight. Today I had heard nothing from him.
I didn’t get it. I liked him. So I did something I’ve never done – I bit the bullet and text first. He replied that he’d been busy and we had abit of a convo going on. I was thinking “why hasn’t he asked me out???”
So again, cos I liked him, I asked him to meet for a drink tomorrow (as he said he was out tomorrow night-as am I).

Long pause…. His iPhone showed that he was typing… Then the typing stopped…

20 minutes later I got a reply saying:
“Right Jemma lemme tell you how it is cus I do believe in being straight. I’ve been chatting to 2 people who have both really got me intrigued. You being one of the 2. The other person kinda got in there first with the hook up for a drink tomorrow offer funnily enough so I’ve said yes so meeting up with you could become a little too interesting. 😳 Xx”

GUTTED. Much!?

And abit arrogant no?

Maybe the other girl hasn’t got children, I know that can be a deal breaker for some men.

Maybe the blog put him off?

Maybe the other girl was hotter?

Anyways, I was polite and said thanks for being straight with me and good luck tomorrow I hope it works out. And I do. He was/is a nice guy!

Just a shame I hadn’t been enough for him to wanna put me first. In the dating world you date your favourite – you don’t have a fucking waiting list.

So I was second best. Again. And that’s one thing I will never allow myself to be again.

Ever.
So back to the fish pond for me 🎣🎣
Mwah, Jemma

@barbiedoll_moi

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Update on Arron the player

Published January 5, 2013 by jjjemma

So here’s the update. I asked young ‘un … Aka… Arron , what was what… He explained… End of..

I am Glad cos I cannot be doing with any dramas so early on in this year! Added bonus… I can keep him as a reserve cock if he ever splits with his gf πŸ™‚
BONUS

Here’s a screen grab…

I’m currently stalking … Erm… I mean … Talking to a new guy on Pof…
Will update more when I know if he’s a cunt or not
Mwah! Xxx
Jem xxx

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The Youth Of Today

Published January 2, 2013 by jjjemma

Does anyone remember Aaron… The 21 year old stud from the post “the eventful evening”.

Well!!!! Let me tell you all that has developed!!!

Little , sweet, gorgeous Aaron, has been texting me constantly over xmas. Including several times on Christmas Day. Then a few days later he began WhatsApping me. Which i was happy to oblige with flirting etc. I asked why he had come over to Whatsapp rather than texting me suddenly and he said “cos I aint used this before”.
Okay, fair enough Jemma thought.

So Aaron continued to elaborate on how much he wanted to kiss my sexy body all over /lick me all over / Can’t wait to come to leicester SO BAD etc etc …. (those were his words btw)

So, today, for some reason I went on Facebook and there was Aarons status update
” Taking my gorgeous gf to arsenal at the end of the month… i will covert you ;p” (and tagged “said” gf in the post)

HOLD. THE. FUCK. UP….!!!!!!!

GIRLFRIEND???? WHAT GIRLFRIEND???!!!

So I made a fresh brew, plugged the mac book in and turned on “stalk-mode”. As a few of you may know from this postwhen I suspect a situation is any less than kosher, I turn into fully blown stalker girl.

So I clicked on aforementioned girlfriends profile. She looked about 19, nose piercing and without sounding like a bitch, average. – I mean, come on… I have “grown” into myself… as I am sure she will…

Anyways, said she was in a relationship with him since Dec 25th. Christmas day – when he spent a lot of it texting ME!
Looked through her profile pics and there was one of HIM and HER on November 4Th 2012 looking loved up. Went down her timeline, and saw she had been “in a relationship” with Aaron in Sept 2012 and June 2010. Basically, it looks like they have been on/off for a very long time. I am sure of one thing … I bet she doesn’t know of ME and I bet thats why he has swerved our little frisky chats over to Whatsapp! CUNT!

So.. I played it very innocent with Aaron. I went onto Whatsapp and said “Oh gosh I didnt realise you had a GF”

He replied:”Only just got one… you were too far away haha”
I replied: “You were too young for me anyway!”
He replied: “Never too young!Well if nothing was to happen at least I met a lovely woman out of it :)”

I replied: πŸ™‚

He replied:”If you’d of came back to my hotel I wouldnt of been a good boy πŸ™‚ xxxx”

I replied: “really?” (at this point fuming)
His response: “yeh course – i was besotted with YOU”

I havent replied. HE hasn’t been straight with me here has he?! “I just got a gf” —- REALLY?!!!
DO I LOOK LIKE I FUCKING FELL OFF A CHRISTMAS TREE?!!!

Now, I have 3 choices here…

1.) Keep quiet, pretend he doesn’t exist and delete off Facebook

2.) Tell his girlfriend, break the girls heart (she will prob go back to him anyway) and fuck him over – SURELY THESE DICKS NEED TO GET WHATS COMING TO THEM?! He dry humped me all over The Fan Club ffs!!!!!

3.) Scare the little player senseless and tell him if he doesn’t be straight with me then I’m gonna tell his gf about our night of “passion” *evil laugh* muhahahahaha!!!

I havent decided what to do. I am not sure I want the drama. However, on the flip side if i was the girl then I would want to be told! Lets not forget, 2 days ago, that little RUNT was planning to take me out when he is down here in 12 weeks!!!

What shall I do??????

YOU DECIDE

Loves Jem xxx

@barbiedoll_moi

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The finale!!! Part 3 : The Tale Of The Ginge

Published November 12, 2012 by jjjemma

…

Last Friday, i woke up feeling like i’d been hit by a truck. My main emotion was betrayal and the overwhelming sense that i’m a gullible dickwad.
Ginge was frantically texting around mid afternoon and the text that broke me was “i know we are not in a relationship but have some decency and courtesy to reply at least!”

FUCK YOUUUUUUU!!!!! i replied a simple but effective “Like you did?”

He had no idea or remorse about ignoring me and lying?!!

After speaking with my closest pal that evening, i decided to give him a chance to admit some of his lies.
My friend pointed out a number of things:
1.) She could be a woman scorned and lied about everything
2.) I have been badly hurt in the past and could be looking for things to go wrong
and
3.) Even if he did do them things to her, he may of changed as it was a few years ago, plus everyone billy bullshits when you meet someone you like and want to impress them

so i text him. I asked him if “this” was really him. I told him i would like him regardless of job status, celebrity ex girlfriends etc. i told him he was funny and that i would still like him even if he worked in Asda.
He admitted NOTHING.
He even suggested that i was insecure and that just because he is a decent guy, i shouldn’t knock him down.

So , i told him that a friend of mine had done some research on him and that he never was in an actual relationship with the celeb.
He started ranting, saying he couldn’t believe it and that they were together over a year and that my friends are misinformed.
He then BLOCKED me on Facebook!
– Very dodgy move!!!

I asked why he had blocked me on there and also asked why he was still living at home if he was a hot shot businessman… (why not ? i had fuck all to lose AND, i am a fucker for getting the truth).

He said because he had moved back here after splitting with his LA girlfriend. He didn’t know whether to move to London where his office is located or stay here. He replied, that he blocked me because he felt “well awkward” about my mates checking on him.

(He said he moved to LA to live with a girl for almost a year, but it didn’t work out… rem don’t you need a Greencard to live in america and work???)

I calmed down abit and asked him to re-add me on Facebook. He didn’t.
I told him i was asking all this because id heard bad stuff and that if it was reversed i would expect him to do the same back.

No reply from Ginge.

I asked him if he was still sulking , as i got into bed.
He replied “yes, i am still sulking like a disabled, ginger, fat person” (thats him being funny not offensive btw!)
and then said “i trust you to trust me”.

Saturday came. Heard nothing from him. He still blocked me on Facebook yet i saw his new blog posts about bullshit overpriced crap. So he was still alive.

In the afternoon i heard from him. say
ing he will unblock me when he isn’t mardy anymore. We had bait of banter. But i couldn’t forget what the celeb girl had told me. We exchange pics of us dressed up (he was out in the shire, whilst i was out 12 miles away). He said i looked pretty.
Later that night at 1 am, he text a very pissed me saying “jem, what do you think about an “us”?”
i replied coyly “i don’t know what do you think?”
He replied in a series of texts that said” I think we would be amazing, we would burn this mother down”.
I said “unblock me on Facebook”
NO REPLY
at 4.58 am , Me and my friend got to our hotel room shit faced. I rang him. He answered. He was laughing at my drunkenness and said “you love me”. I turned. So did my mate. We said he looked like James Hewitt, and called him a liar and my mate screeched “i hate you man!” down the phone and he hung up.
I woke up yesterday with a head rougher than a jermoy kyle contestant.
I got to my mums and was monging out when he text.
He asked me to go and collect him and offered to keep me company at MY HOUSE!

When i am hungover i am very easily pissed off and basically-a bitch.

AS IF I WOULD GIVE JAMES HEWITT (AKA GINGE) MY ADDRESS AFTER WHAT THE C-LIST CELEB SAID !!!)

i called him a dick.
he asked what was wrong with me.
I gave him my blog link and told him to read the fucked. he clearly didn’t as he was replying back and forth too quick.
i then asked him if he turns up at peoples houses with his stuff once they give him their addresses?
He replied “eh???”
straight away.
i text him spilling it all out, what c list celeb had told me. He instantly replied a shocked “oh my god , this is slanderous, im in utter disbelief”
I told him i enjoyed getting to know him and told him how funny he was.
He then responded telling me how his family had opened there arms tp that girl and that he walked out on her as nothing was ever good enough. He expressed his shock and disbelief. Part of me really believed him. He didn’t wait to respond so he wasn’t having “thinking” time between txts either.
He said “THIS” was meant to be our time, getting to know each other and how gutted he was that the nuttier (c-list celeb) had ruined it. He told me how lovely i am and said we should keep in touch.

His last text to me was:
“Find someone nice and don’t settle for less”

Mine was:
“i don’t want anyone now,i am done. This is why i stay the fuck away from men. I am better off on my own. See ya!”

and there, just like that. It was done.

I’ve not contacted him and he hasn’t contacted me. I don’t expect to hear off of him.
I don’t know which of them i believe, all i know is this:

I liked this guy. A lot.
I knew the second i contacted his ex that id probably lost him despite what she said.
I am probably damaged goods thanks to the fellas that have fucked me around.
I find it hard to trust.
I hope that this means i am one step closer to meeting my match for life.
No regrets and i definitely have not cried. I felt sad and still do.
If Ginge asks me for a coffee i will probably meet him to clear the air and try to work the truth from the lies. What do you think?????
But for now, its done.
And i’m a single pringle baby!!!
love Jem x

p.s; i ate a bag of cheese and 2 mince pies whilst writing this blog – comfort food rocks xxx

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The tale of the Ginge -part 2

Published November 12, 2012 by jjjemma

The tale of the Ginge- Part 2:

Last Thurs, we was supposed to meet for a bite to eat. Ginge had suggested this during the previous nights phone call and i had agreed. So Thursday morning came, i got myself dolled up for a lunch date and headed into town. Id not had a “good morning” text, but assumed he was just busy and woud text me at lunchtime to arrange where to meet. So i went about shopping and checking my phone. Midday came and went. My phone was definitely on and working as i text and called friends to pass the time. By 2pm, id given up hope of hearing anything. How fucking rude! i know you are thinking “why didn’t you text hi Jem?” – but in all honesty, i wasn’t prepared to put myself out there with the possibility of being ignored by him as he had done the previous Saturday evening. I was raging. I went home. I opened by laptop and googled him. Lots of things suddenly didn’t add up. His LinkedIn profile was the first thing i checked out. He told me he had dissolved a partnership a couple of years ago with a guy who he was successfully running a business with. He told me this had cost him tens of thousands of pounds. On his profile, in his work history it clearly stated that he was EMPLOYED by the company and NOT co-director as he originally led me to believe. I then looked up his so called ex-business partner ; SHOCK hit me when i found this guy was the actual CEO of the company AND the company was never dissolved as ginger had told me. I then googled Ginge some more and discovered that his current company was registered to his Mums address and that where he said he lived was in fact, not in the lovely area he said, but on the outskirts of it AND the house (via google maps) was a modest one at that. Surely if you are super loaded you would see your family right? No??
I then found his Twitter and he had been posting blogs all day on high end products for the upper class market. I had an awful awful knot in my stomach – the same knot i felt overtime my ex, the DJ had lied to me. It occurred to me that if Ginge had been lying to me about these mediocre things then what else had he been lying about? It was at this point that i googled his so-called ex; The C-list celebrity. BINGO! Loads of stuff came up on her. She had her own website, i read articles that she had featured in etc. One interview she had done revealed she had met her now fiance and baby daddy prior to her big break on the tellybox. Ginge had said he was in a relationship with her at this point! I was super confused and after long thought, decided i needed to find out the truth about this guy once and for all.
This may sound crazy, but i have been badly hurt by a liar before and it left me devastated and broken. I could feel myself falling for Ginge and needed to find out some sort of truth before it was too late. He had arranged to meet me on two separate occasions at this point and then totally blanked me for over 24 hours each time…. So, I emailed his famous ex.

It was a short message that said who i was and who i was dating, and i spoke of how a few things didn’t add up and that ginger said he had dated her. I asked if this was true and politely apologised for having to do this, however, explained that i have two small children and didn’t want to be getting involved with a liar.

2 hours later, she replied:
“Hi Jemma,
He is a liar. Avoid x”

FUCK! my stomach hit the ground.

I rushed to reply saying :
“Thank you for replying! I thought you might think i was mental! Can you elaborate on that at all?”

She replied asking for my number and said she would call.

15 minutes later “BLOCKED” number was calling my phone.
I answered and an eloquent petite, feminine voice spoke to me. She asked for my story. I told her about how we knew each other, what he had said about her (they were together a year, How he said he gave her 5k jewellery to a homeless person, how he relocated up north to be with her and that they had ended because they were too strong, powerful people in the public eye and that they clashed).
She was clearly shocked. She said it was the biggest pack of fucking lies she had ever heard. she told me her version – That she went on 3 dates with him as they lived in the same block of flats whilst they were at uni. She then moved up north and didn’t intend to see him again. He asked for her new address so that he could send flowers to her. She gave it him. The next day he turned up at her new home up north with a suitcase full of his stuff!!! She told him she didn’t want a relationship, that he couldn’t stay and that he had to go. He got aggressive and angry. She was scared and told him she was going to ring the police. He asked to go to the bathroom and said he would leave after. Whilst he went toilet she rang the police, which he heard and he legged it. Once he had gone, she noticed her 5k necklace was missing out of her bedroom along with her cards and cash!!! She told me she thought he had took them not because he needed the money, but because he was mental enough to think she would want to meet up to get her stuff back!!!! She said he wouldn’t leave her alone and tried to sell stories of there “relationship” to a well known newspaper!!!! She then told me she nearly didn’t reply to my email as she thought it might be him trying to fuck with her. I thanked this lady and hung up.
I went into shock. How could i choose so badly?! Why do they all think they can pull the wool over my eyes!?? I didn’t speak to Ginge that evening as i was mulling over my next move. I didn’t want to tell him i had spoken to his ex and make myself look like a mentalist – i also didn’t want to cause trouble for her, a woman who went out of her way to put me in the picture about him.

Ginge updated his status about an hour later saying he was off to a fashion event at a london club. I googled the club, lode under the events page and SURPRISE SURPRISE!!! The club was a members only establishment and didn’t hold events thurdays to sundays!!! He text asking how i was. I ignored the fucker. later that night he tried to ring, i ignored again. At almost midnight he tried to call again. Again, i ignored. He left a voicemail sounding perfectly normal saying he has tried to text and call and joked that “he wouldn’t keep stalking me!” and told me to call him!!! How apt!
Firstly, he didn’t mention not meeting me earlier that day on our lunch date, or texting throughout the day and just sounded NORMAL!!!
5 minutes later, Ginge tagged himself at an exclusive famous gentlemans club in london… BULLSHIT.

i went to bed that evening feeling like utter crap and a total fool.

to be continued….

jem x